Entry: One Last Entry... Good Bye BLOG SPACE... Tuesday, May 24, 2011



Below entry was suppose to be posted for the month of Aug...

but never posted it till today...

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1st Aug 2010,

saw "D.D" was online and he was commenting on something which i tot he shouldn't... i was upset with what i saw... hence being me! i can't help to confront him... but he denied it. or maybe i shouldn't confront him if i want to make the r/s last long... cos i know if once i bring it out things changes... and yes.. it did change somehow...

Trust is a fragile thing.
Once earned it affords us tremendous freedom, but once trust is lost, it can be impossible to recover.
Of course, the truth is, we never know who we can trust.
Those we're closest to can betray us.
In the end, most people decide to trust only themselves.
It really is the simplest way to keep from getting burned

got this from Gossip Girl... admit that is a bimbo show... but i guess it does make some sense sometimes... he told me tat he wasn't using it... then at the end who i am seeing online commenting...?

i feeling that something is going wrong.. and he is surely hiding his tots... something that he never really wanted to share with me... and he stopped calling me dear or babe... then soon no flying kissing over skype.. ever since i bring up that cam4 incident..  i was upset.. cos is not something i can control.. although i so wan to see him again.. and maybe i will never have a chance if he did not decide to settle down in SG...

i wanted to wait and i dun mind waiting... never been so determine before... but having him treating me like a friend.. i can't anymore... i still trying to save this r/s... i never want to be friend only with him... cos he is like the 90% of my ideal partner...

looking at our past conversation... it just seems like i am losing you slowly day by day...

i shouldn't pushes you away when i know you could have be the best thing tat happens to me...

Christina Aguilera - You Lost Me

Babe... you lost me...

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it's been a year since i last posted an entry...

guess being out of love is the main reason why i stop doing it... although i have been loving to share all the food photos with the people who visits my blog. be it whether you are a total stranger or someone who i know personally.... thanks for being supportive although i stop writting my personal feelings here....

if you are those reader who loves all the food pictures...  you can find me on facebook facebook.com/toshiyaki or search for Toshiyaki Yuki

add me and you get to follow me with all the food... lol..

anyway today is "D.D"'s Birthday... decided i should post this entry to let everything comes to an end...

12 am sharp, a year ago i remembered i was sitting in front of the piano... trying to play a happy birthday tone over the phone for "D.D"... wasn't something expensive but it was from the bottom of my heart....

Tonight i actually recorded me singing "Happy Birthday To You" to him when the clock strike 12am.

not sure after all he appreciated what i have tried to do but i believe i had tried hard enough to love him for who he is (he was one hell of a 90%)... as much as i tot i found it but i lost it right in another second....

last week out of the blue he msn me... asking how am i doing... told him i was fine.. days later he asked if i know the singer named ADELE... then he posted the following link....

he told me that it reminded him about me... i was happy that after all this Song that i have been listening to countless times (more than 1000 according to my itunes) have some meaning to him.

He then said "I Wish Nothing But The Best For You" followed by the link... the song of Adele "Someone Like You"

i drop my tears once again

For the Melody...

For the Song...

For the Lyrics...

and for YOU...

I couldn't stay away i couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded
that for me it isn't over. (I never really let go of it)

Nevermind, i'll find someone like(better than) you.
Don't forget me I beg (although i do wish you will never forget me)

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts (for our case it hurts in the end)

You'd know how the time flies.
Only yesterday was the time of our lives (i know you one year ago but it just seems like yesterday though)

P.S "D.D."
Take Care and Good Bye. I wish you all the best with the things and person in your life. Please just let me go...

Good-bye...

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